Was at a fowl mood at work again - didnt eat for 35hours and then basically ate 5 days food in an hour but wasnt sick because mum would have come home during the episode... I really dont get why I cant do this at home. It is like I need a fresh start to be able to do this. A really good fresh start in Paris. I know I KNOW nothing EVER will let me destroy my goals in Paris. 8 weeks. 8 GLORIOUS weeks to LEARN to STARVE and to come back REFORMED. I don't know if I should take scales or not - if I don't then It will be a wicked surprise and it would most likely keep me on track. Because I could lose a SHIT LOAD in 2 months. I CANNOT WAIT. Even 3lbs a week (and I will lose more than that a week) is 24lbs in 2 months.

I AM GOING TO BE AN ANGEL