sugar disaster

this is really not going well!! today I ate... oh god wait for it...

apple
banana
flump
nutrigrain
milk icelolly thing
3 packs of tasters
6 sticks of kitkat
a yogurt
bean salad with pitta
cadbury chocolate bar
an options hotchocolate
a slice of white bread


I really don't want to eat on the weekend. Georgia said you could concentrate because you enter state of delirium - so I have 3 red bull for oral exam mornings. this is fine. PLEASE DO IT!! It has just gone midnight - every ever you may drink a hot chocolate.

if i eat after exams i will want to shoot myself

Yep. that's what I thought. FAIL

Ok... so I have eaten...

half a pack of carrots - 100kcal
2/3 of a pack of red grapes - 300kcal
baked beauties - 150kcal
a handful of shreddies - 100kcal
a handful of branflakes - 100kcal
5/6 pretzels - 50kcal max
dried mango - 200kcal
a biccie - 60kcal
a hotchocolate options - 35kcal
1095kcal

lets round that to 1200kcal today...

Why am I such a retard? Why can I never ever do this? What is wrong with meeeeeeeeeee.....

Time to fast

Ok I've read lots of sites that say there are cool health benifits of fasting, not just weight loss- and if done for more days concentration improves... SO DON'T EAT!!

thu
fri
sat
sun
mon
tue
wed
for the doctors - at least 7 pounds - which is in the 8 stone range again. phew!

major chocolate issues. sent card home. remember the cause. get under 9 stone get under 9 stone. do not buy food. fight the mind. it will not win.

Soup and Apples

There we go. If I find it hard to fast and concentrate, I can now eat apples and soups galore...

(600kcal 5am morning before start mishap)
300 Soup
400 Apples

7 day fast

It will happen